I just finished doing my bible reading for the morning like every other morning only this time instead of going to an other site and wasting time. I did something different I googled Seventh Day Slumber and on their web page the song was from the Inside Out. I am so wanting to cry cause my insides are in such turmoil I can't even explain or to even know where to begin. I feel like there is such a battle in my body and I am spiritually dying is that possible even though I read my bible everyday??? I do not pray at least not the way I should but I feel like a buoy out in the ocean just floating and taking on water. If it were possible that would be the best way to describe my state of mind as though all the garbage of this world was the sea I am floating on and its really hurting me. So what should I do I know pray would be the thing to do but I feel so far away from God I know that all I have to do is turn around but I am afraid or should I say ashamed. He is the only one who
has always been there for me but the first one that I turn my back on always what if this is the time when He says like others I am done or enough is enough my God what have I done with this precious life you have entrusted to me? And what do I do now I know you are not the author of confusion but my insides are so conflicted please give me the strength to turn around and reach out for that hand of love I know is there I hope is there. Just one last time to feel your loving arms please don't let this be all there is.